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4:04 AM Haven't been updating this for a very long time I realise. Because there were so much things going on in my life I didn't have time to think. And I get lazy to think too.
Hmm, so holiday has been great. Been fooling around alot, but did my part of studying too.

I was reading Redsports last night and I saw some rugby news about SCC being in the finals. And I realise Titi's playing too. I really really wanna go watch the match tmr. Since it'll be probably the last last last time he'll be playing rugby for the longest time. But in the end decided not to bcus Irvin says playing mahjong tmr will be more worth it and KahHwee strongly objects to it.

Oh wells, I decided not to go in the end. Not because of anything else but just because I don't want him to get irritated when he sees me there tmr. Its not about me still liking him or still thinking of him. But its just how I really want to see him play. Not bcus of anything else.

Went to Valley point to study alone on sunday and I saw him there too. How lucky can I get. -.- Nothing particular was going through my mind but I just felt a gush a blood rushed to my head. And my eyes felt teary. Thats about it. I don't understand why but like I wasn't thinking about him at that time or anything it was just seeing him that made me felt that way. Hurhur. Sucks.

About Felicia, I've kinda forgotten what happened between us already. Now I don't feel like nauseous or sian when I see her in school. I said hi to her in school that day and made fun of her too. I surprise myself at the things I do sometimes. I just can't remember anymore.

And Irvin, I hate it when it comes to him. There's times when I thought I'm probably really going to like him already but there's times when I just don't feel like talking to him too. The feeling's so on and off its so annoying.

I'm so afraid I'll get used to seeing his message every morning when I wake up. He smses me everyday, but he gives stupid one word reply but when I don't reply him he asked me why didn't I reply his msg. He knows exactly where to find me in Kinokuniya while I was reading some books. He insisted that he doesn't want to go for extra lesson when I told him too but he showed up the next morning anyway.

Blah but it feels so weird when you're suddenly so close with someone you get a shock sometimes. Like what I'm feeling now. Why am I suddenly so close with him? What am I doing?

Despite everything, I've been laughing alot, having alot of fun. Friends have been keeping me sane and happy. But sometimes I feel like such a lousy friend. I only talk to them often when I'm feeling down or when I need them. But when I'm ok I just get so lazy and not bother about them. And its not that I've been busy with useful things. I get so lazy to reply friend's sms nowadays, or even reply them on msn. Tsktsk, I know its bad but I just don't feel like caring about anything.

Although I'm writing all this, its not that I'm feeling unhappy about my life now or anything, its just me reflecting on things happening recently. I just wanna run away now. To somewhere with a clear blue sky, sand, sea, breeze, sun, and many many new people waiting for me to get to know!

A few more months to go! :)

4:04 AM Haven't been updating this for a very long time I realise. Because there were so much things going on in my life I didn't have time to think. And I get lazy to think too.
Hmm, so holiday has been great. Been fooling around alot, but did my part of studying too.

I was reading Redsports last night and I saw some rugby news about SCC being in the finals. And I realise Titi's playing too. I really really wanna go watch the match tmr. Since it'll be probably the last last last time he'll be playing rugby for the longest time. But in the end decided not to bcus Irvin says playing mahjong tmr will be more worth it and KahHwee strongly objects to it.

Oh wells, I decided not to go in the end. Not because of anything else but just because I don't want him to get irritated when he sees me there tmr. Its not about me still liking him or still thinking of him. But its just how I really want to see him play. Not bcus of anything else.

Went to Valley point to study alone on sunday and I saw him there too. How lucky can I get. -.- Nothing particular was going through my mind but I just felt a gush a blood rushed to my head. And my eyes felt teary. Thats about it. I don't understand why but like I wasn't thinking about him at that time or anything it was just seeing him that made me felt that way. Hurhur. Sucks.

About Felicia, I've kinda forgotten what happened between us already. Now I don't feel like nauseous or sian when I see her in school. I said hi to her in school that day and made fun of her too. I surprise myself at the things I do sometimes. I just can't remember anymore.

And Irvin, I hate it when it comes to him. There's times when I thought I'm probably really going to like him already but there's times when I just don't feel like talking to him too. The feeling's so on and off its so annoying.

I'm so afraid I'll get used to seeing his message every morning when I wake up. He smses me everyday, but he gives stupid one word reply but when I don't reply him he asked me why didn't I reply his msg. He knows exactly where to find me in Kinokuniya while I was reading some books. He insisted that he doesn't want to go for extra lesson when I told him too but he showed up the next morning anyway.

Blah but it feels so weird when you're suddenly so close with someone you get a shock sometimes. Like what I'm feeling now. Why am I suddenly so close with him? What am I doing?

Despite everything, I've been laughing alot, having alot of fun. Friends have been keeping me sane and happy. But sometimes I feel like such a lousy friend. I only talk to them often when I'm feeling down or when I need them. But when I'm ok I just get so lazy and not bother about them. And its not that I've been busy with useful things. I get so lazy to reply friend's sms nowadays, or even reply them on msn. Tsktsk, I know its bad but I just don't feel like caring about anything.

Although I'm writing all this, its not that I'm feeling unhappy about my life now or anything, its just me reflecting on things happening recently. I just wanna run away now. To somewhere with a clear blue sky, sand, sea, breeze, sun, and many many new people waiting for me to get to know!

A few more months to go! :)